It has been a difficult week in some respects... I have had a few things to deal with which initially cause me so much pain! But eventually, my breathing slows and my mind starts to level out and I can pray, trust God and move through it.
But it definitely has been a challenging week.
I have also been listening to Graham Cooke. He talks about God being a present-future God not a past-present God. We need to live in the present-future and not react or behave by the things that have shaped us in the past... pain, fear, jealousy, frustration, abuse. We need to learn what God sees of us now and what reality we are walking into and live life to the potential that God has planned for us.
"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the LORD. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11
I have also made the decision to stand for my marriage. God designed marriage, He blessed our marriage, in fact He ordained it. When it looked like we couldn't afford it, He provided for us. He blessed our marriage with children. He hates divorce. He is a God of reconciliation and restoration. And so, I am believing in the covenant that Steve and I made before God. Steve may never come home to me but that's OK because that is not what it is about. It is about honouring a promise I made to God and staying faithful to that calling. Of course, the best outcome would be for Steve to come home. But that is ultimately between God and Steve. And as Steve has made it clear many times, he has moved on. And I am happy with that.
No photos of the kids this week. We missed our call on Tuesday (and I can't even remember why?) but I spoke to them all over the phone on Friday... got to get a microphone that works on my computer! Hannah and Caleb were "Hi mum! I'm good! How are you? Love you mum! Bye" as usual. At least I get a little more time out of them over the webcam because they can actually see me! Leah was a little better. She's excited about a school excursion that they are taking soon to an indigenous community and school...to learn about their way of life. And they those kids will come and visit Leah's class at school. She's really looking forward to it!
I hope this post finds you all well!
Fi
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I think that while your decision to stand for your marriage is admirable, I think its also important to bear in mind that a present-future God does not want to see you in chains.
I think if your husband has moved on and has remarried, God probably calls you to rest, much like he would if you had married an unbeliever who departs (can't remember the reference, Corinthians somewhere I think).
Not that your ex is an unbeliever... but if his interpretation of God's view of marriage and divorce is different to yours, does that make him an "unbeliever" in the marriage covenant, even though he is not an unbeliever in Christ? Does that mean you were unequally yoked and are now free of those chains?
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